Had an excellent time yesterday. Busy... Not like ordinary busy. It was a long day that started at six o'clock in the morning and ended at one thirty in the morning, today. hahahahaha.

went to see my doctor regarding some tests that they made a few weeks ago... And the diagnosis was excellent.

then, dropped by the office to do some emergency restart of the server.

the real fun happened when I went to the annual Canada day celebration by the Canadian embassy here. It was different. At first, I didn't want to go. Because as usual, I'd be the only one of my age there and everybody else would have a good 10 years ahead of me. Like the years before, yeah its still true. Everybody older where there. But surprisingly I had a good time.

I had forgotten what someone taught me a few years ago that it doesn't matter whether or not a person is smart/intelligent... He too has something to say and that he too can teach you a lesion. I had forgotten that I had a lot to learn from these captains of industry. And I did. I had also forgotten that this opportunity is a gift. How many people my age, get to listen to these people's experiences? True, often we find ourselves out of place we being only a quarter a century old and those guys have certainly a huge head start on us. But then again, we can bring this to people our age someday.

I found myself utterly out of place... Walking in greenbelt (mall to those of you who don't know) in my barong (Filipino formal attire) with every other person in jeans and casual attire.

Anyway, what else did I learn? Some interesting new ideas. Its nice what these people can suggest during small talk. Going to after those things.

I left the party as they were just getting warmed up... With some entertainment/dancing/singing... Which weren't there from the previous years. I had to. I was suppose to meet my cousins... To watch spider-man 2. I wouldn't miss that even for this. So at eight o'clock in the evening, we were on our way back to greenhills to watch. :D at first the blamed me... They were famished. I, coming from the reception... Had already eaten (and drank 5 glasses of wine and I thank my good sense not to have drank beer which I was tempted to).

So they got some Japanese fast food while I bought tickets to Spidy 2!

I got to say, the movie rocked! And no... As much as I love to tell you folks some spoilers (spoilers for you general people, but I'd like to call them "robins" for you insiders)... I won't. Watch it!!! It rocks!!! :p its a hybrid romantic-comedy, action-adventure-geek-feast! It was funny, it was entertaining, it was mushy but it had the right amount of testosterone. Kudos to rami and his people!

It was nice to join the human race every so often. I had forgotten what its like to be a person and not just a brain. I had realize that, sure we give it all when the need arises, when work so demands and often we forget that we are but human.

I will not be stupid enough to admit, there is still darkness in our heart. There is still anger and frustration, but it was nice that for few moments, we can just forget it all. We have been able to put into proper perspective, the things we have learned from captains of industries. We can put in their proper place, some of our own ideas and though sometimes we feel a bit repressed, our hope and our will still survive.

Like "in crucible" we must go through this storm. Like a blade, we can be forged right.

In the past 3 months, we have been more cynical, more jaded but we too have a sense of optimism and idealism. There is still anger in our heart... And our resentment about that old wooden cross remain as much as our resentment on those who have crossed our path. These are obstacles that we need to address. Which we will, slowly.

what of matters of the heart? Surely she too must be addressed? Not until we put this house in order. We will someday, but not today... No matter how much we want to tell her what we feel and to court her. It wouldn't be the responsible thing to do. It just wouldn't be right, you know?

four hours after coming home, I'm back in my office in greenhills... Sleepy, writing this but ready to work, hopefully this time around we can face this challenge a stronger better person. This moment's respite has given us breathing space, if only for awhile. The fundamental problems still need to be addressed and this undying itch we need to scratch... To turn into reality all our dreams... And we will. :D